Here is the thing about blogging...it is supposed to make you feel better...let you express your feelings...a release.
After the last post about four generations...growing old...family memories...I went down a path. It was not a good look for me.
Growing up, my mom was a simple person. We did not have much growing up. My mom was just a simple person, in a very nice, lovely way.
I can still see the Correlle dishes on the table...the ones with the avocado green flowers.
My mom was a sucker for avocado green.
Those were the dishes we ate off of for at least 18 years. I cleared them nightly and washed and dried them...and later put them in the dishwasher.
I am not a fancy person either. I am not into shiny things, no jewelry, not anything fancy or shiny.
Until I saw my Mamaw's dishes. They we displayed in a maple hutch in her tiny dining room/sewing room.
I spent many an afternoon, trying on the dress she was making me, with the hemming ruler, I would step in a circle, while she was putting the pins in for the hem. The room was small, the floor creaked and on the wall was a hutch that displayed lovely dishes.
I guess, when I was turning around, during the hemming session, that I noticed the dishes. I asked her for them. I said, (because you know when you are 14 and anybody above the age of 50, has one foot in the grave), "Mamaw, when you are old and die, can I please have your dishes?"
She tilted her head, looked shocked and said, "of course but you know plates usually have food on them". This was a total jab because I had no interest in cooking and/or baking at the time. She was convinced "that I would never find a man because I could not bake a homemade pie crust.
Many years past. Turns out that Mamaw was not going out easily...she lived to be 92.
My mom packed up the dishes, all wrapped in Tribune Review paper and delivered them to me about 21 years ago.
After I wrote my last blog, I called my cousin Jennifer. We talked about our family tree/gene pool. And things we appreciated.
The next day, I went up into the bonus room and dug out a box of dishes.Why was I keeping something wrapped up in Tribune Review newspaper when they meant something to me? Why? Nobody in my house would appreciate who they came from of why we had these dishes? The disadvantage of being a late bloomer, when you finally have kids in your mid 40's, those babies most likely will not have long relationships with their grandparents, and most definitely not have four generations.
I washed the dishes. I dried the dishes. I put them in my old rustic hutch. A few in the cabinet. And I said nothing.
Later that day, Walker came in and asked, "Mom, where did you get those dishes, they are so pretty?"
I smiled, shook my head and said, "upstairs in the bonus room...They have been there for 21 years. They were my grandmother's."
I felt like the Grinch, when he was on the top of the mountain hearing all the little Who's on Whoville singing.
Win for Mamaw, win for my old rustic hutch and win for my heart.
When Franklin and Walker sat down for dinner, Franklin also commented on the dishes.
I could see us all cramped around that little dining room table, kids at the little card table (aka the kids table) with the dishes in front of us.
The angst in my heart that I had been feeling, it went away. They belonged on a new table and in a new hutch where there was love and fun and frozen pie crusts. These dished definitely did not belong wrapped in newspaper in my bonus room.
I am using the good dishes knowing full well they will get chipped, broken, the whole nine yards. They need to be loved and appreciated now, not later.
The beat goes on. Pass the plate.