You reap what you sow...

Months ago, I was a broken seed.  I blogged about it.  And, I planted.  And planted and planted.  My Pastor spoke and I listened.  And then I said, "Limbo sucks."

We put on our Tigger suits and we went went into action.

Off to the wilderness.  Let nature and God intervene. "Let Go and Let God."

Yesterday, this is what greeted me.

One year ago, my family was broken, my heart at war.

Last night, Franklin and I participated in our group therapy session.

Again, "if you take your troubles to the market, chances are you will leave with your basket."

Mothers and fathers, with hearts at war, spoke with ache and defeat in their voices.  One mother has a 10 and a 13 year old, the 13 year old is "on the trail."  Walker is 10.  Ugh.

Another mother was fiercely determined to "fix" her son.  She was sure that this program had a 100 percent guarantee for life.  She had a heart at war.  She had her fists up and was ready to still fight.  She was not ready to change herself.  She just wanted her son to change. 

I sat and listened and listened and listened. 

It is so easy to listen and empathize with these parents.  I have been that "fix it" mom, whether he wanted it or not.  The mother who said, "you are going to have fun, now suck it up and smile, damn it." 

Franklin and I have embraced this program. "You reap what you sow."  We have put  our arms around the program and we have read and absorbed and listened and learned.  And, we have put our fists down and have embraced change to walk forward.

The therapy is designed to put all of the family on the same trail...and the entire  family walk forward.   Fill you heart with love and positive energy.  The more energy you give something, positive or negative, the bigger it becomes.  Fill your heart with love.  Treat and speak to people like they are people and not objects. 

We are all about it.  We have learned.  We have looked at our mistakes and shrugged our shoulders.  Child rearing doesn't come with a replay button or a crystal ball.

Are our kids going to make mistakes?  Yep.  Am I?  Yep.  It is all in how you handle it and your attitude.

I have planted my garden.  I will take bright, happy sunflowers any day of the week.  Weeds suck.  The soil makes all the difference.  Franklin and I are working on fertilizing the soil, even scraps make  compost.  Compost makes fabulous soil.

If you plant your seeds in great soil, the seeds will break, sprout new life and then, you will reap what you sow.  For the first time in a year, I am so looking forward to how this garden will blossom.

oh, PS.  Walker took that picture.