I hate the game "upset the fruit basket"

I am a list maker and a list "crosser offer".  I have been making lists for years.  I even make lists on the weekend.  I use the same form, the same font, the same everything.  I have been doing this since High School.

1.  Clean upstairs
2.  Clean downstairs
3.  weed front beds
4.  fold laundry/put away

Typically, things appear on the list...mysteriously.
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5.  tell your husband you love him and rub his feet and._________(fill in the blanks)

I love order.  I love lists.  I love being organized.  I love to know that I have 32 more days till a special event.  I love day timers.

What I hate  are the following:
 you get up in the morning and you hear those famous words, "mom,my throat is sore and my ear hurts", or the phone rings and you hear, "Mrs.  Mom, this is the principal of the high school and we have you son in here" or the car won't start or the dishwasher goes.  I would not be a natural disaster survivor.

When I was little and would get home from school, if my mom was not home, there was usually a napkin on the kitchen table that would say, "at store, be home in a few minutes, eat a snack".  If there wasn't a note, look out.  I would imagine EVERY horrible scenario I could in ten seconds as to where my mom was and that she wasn't coming home.

On my list there used to be things like,

1.  order yearbook
2.  order new wrestling shoes
3.  check on fasa monies
4.  make sure the button calls back recruiting coaches.


Never,ever did I think I would be adding,

1.  call attorney
2.  send attorney money
3. check on treatment facilities
4. try to find ways to never show my face in public again

Bottom line is this, I like my apple cart never to tip over. 

Lately, the apple cart has been stable.  "Button" is secure, school is back in session, I have been going on interviews and cleaning and Franklin is still working and still adding deviant things to my list.

But...I am leery.  Nervous.  Scared.  The apple cart is up and secure and I know that it has been to stable too long.  Forty days of stability is a record for us.

The "button" could say he has had enough at any moment and leave and run from the Land Of Oz.  If he does, I hope he finds the brain the scarecrow is looking for also.  Maybe they can search together.

In three more days, it will be 30 days without chocolate.  It doesn't matter that it is just three.  I still seems like 33 more  days.  Three days to go so why would I fall off the wagon now? People do it all the time.  The "button" is a person.

I sleep with my phone by my bed. I am so afraid that phone will ring in the middle of the night, "Uh, hello, ummm this is so and so and the "button" is missing. He has left the Land of Oz".   So scared.

I added something to my list today, it now reads like this....

Things to do this week...

1.  wash and wax car inside and out
2.  send birthday and get well cards(M,B, J)
3.  get guitar string repaired
4.  sign a up for hip hop
5.  take care of brownie stuff and uniform
6.  get C the addresses
7.   send 10 resumes
8.  be thankful
9.  be hopeful
10.  breathe

I wish I knew where I could take my apple cart to get aligned.